I'm bored and away from my computer, not expecting to get much attention but ask me questions about my OCS.

Ask questions, suggest ideas, whatever I'm bored and want interaction.

Look at all these OCS you can choose from. Probably even more than this

I've done a good amount of commissions and I must admit that it bums me a bit that every time I announce them here I've never actually gotten any interest from someone on Newgrounds 😅

Makes me wonder if i should ever bother advertising stuff I'm doing here anymore.

My commissions are open, but I won't be making formal posts about them here anymore

It is what it is I suppose

Assuming I don't catch some weird third thing or I don't relapse, at this rate I should be relatively fine.

TLDR: Still sick but not so sick that it's a problem, drawing again, commissions open on Monday, drink water

I'm still sick, but not so sick anymore that I'm inhibited but it really. There are a few things-

My mouth and throat still stay dry so eating is a bit rough, I have to chase everything with water; drinks too anything that isn't just straight water the taste will stain my throat and mouth and it's such a nasty icky sensation, so I have to constantly take sips of water. I basically never cough now but when I do it's from my throat and not my chest, and sometimes I'm a bit congested.

That sounds rough but compared to how sick I was before, it's not alot, and I've been sick so long I've basically gotten used to it. So again still a bit sick, bit I've gotten enough energy to draw and do things again, feeling more sociable and doing things and what not again. My appetite is steadily coming back, when I was more sick I was always nauseous and sick on the stomach so I was never hungry or had an appetite and because of how little I was eating I lost around 5-6 pounds. I still need to remind myself to eat from time to time, but I get hungry easier.

I should be more active now, and hopefully I'm back to 100% health before the end of the month. Assuming nothing else happens, this should hopefully be the last time I mention my health, if I never bring it up again just assume I'm all better

On that note I plan to open commissions on Monday, so if anyone is interested in that keep an eye out 👋👋

Or if you'd like to support in another way here's my Kofi page

I also have an Itchio you can check out, but it desperately needs an overhaul.

Update for the update

TLDR: Legs don't hurt nearly as bad as they used to. Head still hurts amongst other things.

I started having problems around mid August, it is close to the middle of September and I am still unwell. The good news I suppose is that my legs no longer hurt nearly as much as they used to, some days it would be unbearable and debilitating but that's now no longer the case. They still hurt but it's more of an annoyance for the most part, I haven't needed to take medicine to ease the pain; I sometimes I still get sharp bolts of pain in my knees and ankles, but it's brief, and I can't do things like run or even stand comfortably for too long, but still this is Significantly better than it was before.

Last update I mentioned headaches-

...my head feels like it could explode, and my eyes feel constantly strained. I have to be careful how I walk, not just for my legs, but because sometimes if I take the wrong step or step too hard I can feel all of that force being sent to my head and the bottom of my neck...

For the last couple of weeks I have been coughing constantly, which sends all of that pressure to my head, making my headaches so much worse, every few hours I have to take medicine for my head, but we don't have that much for helping with my coughs long term throughout the day. I don't know if all of the coughing is or is not connected to what was going on with my legs, but I only started coughing alot when my legs started hurting less.

Another thing is the outer back of my jaw was swollen the entire time too, occasionally it would even force my bottom jaw forwards. I naturally have an overbite but whatever was happening would shift it into an underbite, it was painful and made it nearly impossible to chew. At first I thought it was my wisdom teeth again, but I've grown to know when my teeth are what bothering me and this wasn't it; I took a guess at tonsilitis because the symptoms match, (Swollen lymph nodes, constant coughing, maybe my constant sweating in my sleep was a fever), but my tonsils seem fine from just a look at them; I don't think it was tonsilitis. The swelling has gone down and I no longer have this problem, however I still don't know how connected it could be because if anything my coughing is only getting worse.

For weeks now just simply existing feels exhausting, I don't have energy to do anything and I have a hard time finding an appetite, perhaps that's on me though to try and find the energy when I have to do something, and eat when I know I should. Lately it's just been not fun. I was told that I was going to see a doctor, and then just didn't? I dunno we don't exactly have alot of money, and it's towards the end of the month so I don't think I'm going to get to see one anytime soon.

Right now I kind of wanna throw up, I don't feel nauseous, but I just want to I feel like I need to, it feels like there's a rock in my stomach and a sandpaper balloon in my chest, and every time I swallow it feels like something is blocking my throat, I hate it.

There were a couple of days I felt really good, and if you follow me on Twitter you saw the Dotidots that I drew, and then afterwards I opened Dotidot commissions, but as I am now I simply can't see myself doing them, luckily no one's payed, however there is someone how did pay for a commissions from me several weeks ago, and I've been unable to complete it, I feel incredibly incompetent. The side of my bed looks like a medical table with a bunch of pills, powders, and rubs, and CBD gummies- I'm not taking them.

In the last update I mentioned how paranoid about dying I felt, I don't feel that bad anymore, I've sorta just learned to cope with how I feel. For now though I just feel tired.

Sorry again if this wasn't as nice of an update as it should be.

Earlier too I mentioned that going further into the month we won't have alot of money, in the past I've had people send me money through Kofi after I've said things like that, if ever anyone feels the need to tip or donate please don't do so because I'm sick, if it gets that bad I'll let you know ✌️. Only do it if it's just out of appreciation of my art, though to be fair I'm not exactly drawing alot right now. Something stupid like a Hamburger is also good, yes do please send the burger money. (don't actually)

In the meantime, I shall lay back down. I hate naps, usually I took maybe 3 naps a year, but I find my self drifting to sleep much more often. Me and my homies hate naps.

Just I thought followers here should but I have been fairly sick for a bit.

TLDR: My legs, particularly my knees and ankles, have been in pain for the past 9 or so days and it really sucks.

For over about a week now my legs have been in increasing amounts of discomfort and pain. During most of the day it can be mild mild discomfort, but at times it's just pure pain, especially at night, sometimes it would be impossible to ignore; I'd spend most of it tossing and turning, trying to support my legs with pillows, sleeping in different positions etc. One day I was woken up in the middle of the night it was so bad, and for 45 minutes I tossed and turned unable to go back to sleep.

The pain is mostly just in my knees and ankles, and occasionally I can feel in my my lower thighs and calves. I've been able to take pain pills to ease the pain and they worked really well at first, but now they don't do quite as much nor last as long. Though granted they aren't hard pain killers, they're basically just Aspirins, but they worked so-

Lately now my neck and head have been in pain too, my neck feels thick and heavy and I don't have the same range of motion, and my head feels like it could explode, and my eyes feel constantly strained. I have to be careful how I walk, not just for my legs, but because sometimes if I take the wrong step or step too hard I can feel all of that force being sent to my head and the bottom of my neck. I can even feel my headache in my teeth. And now for the past few hours I've been feeling like I could throw up.

The best way I could describe the pain in my legs is like heavy strain after a long run, that just never goes away. However this morning when I woke up that feeling wasn't there and it felt more like someone smashed me knees and ankles, it was pretty bad.

I really wanna (need to) see a doctor, and we do plan to but I have to wait a bit as we don't have any money for it right now, the plan is to go to a Walk-in Clinic and get X-Rays, amongst hopefully other things. However if the pain does ever get to bad we're straight to the emergency room.

Sorry if this a bit out of nowhere and feels melancholic, but I also have been talking about it else where, figured it best to keep people here informed; but don't worry as I am not 😅. I am, and I want the pain to go away, but I've also never been type to worry or panic too much as it often doesn't help, so I sorta just exist, don't get me wrong I do hope I get better soon, because this sucks; at the same time though I remain rather calm.

What does suck though is that I have been a bit paranoid, because of a video I saw, where a guy went to bed to sleep off some head and neck pain, and it turned out he was having a brain aneurism, and I've been thinking about that nonstop; and today I recently found out that someone I knew from school had unfortunately passed away from cancer, so naturally it's been implanted in my head that I could have cancer. It's always the big C that scares people. I highly doubt that it's cancer (hopefully it isn't), but I don't think it's much of an irrational fear to have at the moment.

Just wanted to let people here know what was going on, and I'm going to use this as a master post to share other places, sorry. 🙏

Made some changes to this Dotidot upload

When I originally went to do line art I made the lower body much larger than the already adjusted sketch and I really never liked how it looked, amongst a few other things, so I took the time to down size her butt.

There are also some other changes I made, wasn't quite fond of how I originally rendered her skin so I adjust some stuff. Didn't change anything on how it was rendered but I adjusted the opacity of a few layers, and there are some other adjustments in overall colors I made. Overall I like the new version alot more.

On the left is the old, and on the right is the new.

In flat color it's not quite as noticeable, in fact I don't mind how the larger size looks when just in flat colors, but I was also not much of a fan of how I rendered her skin overall.

All of the old images are still there, but there is a cap for how many images there are; there were three images of Dotidot separated from the background, so save space I took them and merged them into one long image. However it isn't any smaller and the three pictures are easily separatable.

There should be like a Newgrounds Gazette Collab or something where we make a fake newspaper with ads and we make lil 3-5 panel comics.

I'm not gonna organize something like that, but I'll frontpage this just incase someone more bold than I sees this

That time of year once again 😌😌

I'm going to have to figure out what I want to draw for myself for my birthday this year.

Last post got enough interaction I suppose so I wanna do more, though I'm not sure how much people over here really think about my characters but I suppose I can't hurt to ask 😅

But I'm curious, does anyone have any questions about Hamo and Marin? the iconic pairing